Struggling

Today I am struggling. I keep thinking about the past. Keep learning things that I don't want to know. How are you supposed to keep your head up and move on with life when he moved on in less than 15 days? Its right there in your face. "In A Relationship" Why was it easier to "know" he was still seeing her than it is to"see" it online? I know he never stopped seeing her, even when we were working on our marriage, but to know that less than 15 days after its officially over, he is public with her. It hurts more than I can describe. I wanted for it to work so badly. How can you just throw 6 years of love and life together, out the window for a teenager and a mother and a fellow airman? I just don't understand. It hurts so badly.

My prayer today: I ask God to give me a glimpse of what his love for me is like.